March 28, 2011

This business of plugging into spirit can be malignant if motivated in the slightest by ego, and oh what ego's we have!  Like alcohol in AA: cunning, baffling and powerful.  Like chameleons, like cuttlefish, now you see it, now you don't.  Attraction or desire for enlightenment need not be ego-manufactured.  It is always present, like gravity, like magnetism, in our heart of being.  Our ego resists this gravity like a plane running out of fuel, and the ego-plane runs on desire and fear.  We must learn to starve the beast, withhold the fuel long enough for it to crash and burn, then all will be well.  I have heard enlightenment described as a dark room suddenly and completely illuminated with the opening of a door or window (remember, N.M. says that a window is simply the absence of walls), or as a sudden and final recognition of truth.  I would call it a letting go in the face of extinction.  Yes, extinction follows, extinction of the ego.  After that, it's all living without a net, exhilarating.